I have tried again and again to say what is on my mind. I have talked to more than a hundred  people about what has happened to my family and I. It has been hard for me to explain how I feel and what is really going on in my head. I can honestly say words just do not describe it. There are feelings of sorrow, hurt, gut wrenching pain, happiness from good memories, joy from seeing the works of my savior, and a longing for a person that I have never felt before in my life.

This blog was suppose to be a place where I could tell about how my agpilot was working hard, being a great dad, and reaching all of his life long dreams. I never thought it would be a blog about my journey of being a “former” agwife. A diary of a journey I did not pick for myself, but rather a journey that was picked for me.

On August 18, 2015, my life was rattled with horrible news. The words a wife and a mother never ever want to hear, “Lacey, he is gone.” What? Say that again. He had a accident in his airplane. He is gone. Chad Allan Powell left this world doing what he loved to do, but WAY to soon. That is the end.

That is what I thought at first. This is the end of his life, our marriage, and my life. That is what the human side of me told me, but that is not what Christ told me.

I promise in the midst of the pain, Jesus reached down and put out his loving arms. He whispered in my ear, “its going to be ok, Chad is fine, happy, and not worrying anymore.” That may sound crazy, but when your world hits rock bottom, you will hear the voice of God and feel his presence.

Do I think every hour and minute it will be ok? No. I just grasp on to the promises of Jesus and know HE has got this. I miss Chad so much. I have one shirt I smell everyday. It still has his smell and the cologne he sprayed on it. I look at our children and see his features. Sawyer has his hands and Fran has his, well, Hair. ( She looks to much like me) I look at these things and thank God I still have him. Little pieces of him. Wonderful reminders of him.

So here and now I am making it. Trusting God has it. He is making beauty out of the ashes. He will heal my broken heart. I am living in a different way. I live more on trust than myself. I live for today. I live hour by hour. I live minute by minute. I live for Jesus. I tell HIM I am yours, dear LORD use me. Here I am.

Thank you to all that have prayed for our family. Thank you to all that have worked so hard to  meet our needs.

We love you all,

Lacey Powell


About agwife

The purpose of this blog was a outlet for me to share about being of a agpilot's wife. On August 18th, 2015 my husband was killed while cropdusting. I am now using this as a journal for my family's journey through life. I am still a stay at home mom. I attend college part-time to obtain a Social work degree. Thank you all for reading and taking the time to comment. Love yall

5 responses to “HERE AND NOW- A NEW LIFE

  1. Kelly

    i have your blog bookmarked, read them EVERYDAY, especially Jesus is my pilot, and have been wondering if you would write again. I love just reading your old posts and of course this one has really touched my heart. I pray everyday for you and your family and of course Chad. You are such a strong woman! Always knew you were especially for “putting up” with Chad LOL. Hope to see yall soon and keep writing! I love it!

  2. Candice Halk

    Chris and I both thought a lot of you and chad. We love you and if you ever need anything please don’t hesitate to ask. We need to get the kids together soon. Chris said this winter he is still going to stock Chads pond so Sawyer and Fran can fish whenever they want. Praying for yall everyday. Candice Halk

  3. Brian Scarbrough

    We were eating lunch at Lenny Joe’s house when the call came. I know you don’t know all of us guys in Morton area but we sure liked your husband a great deal! The week before me and Timmy Jones went in Wal Mart in Wynne and picked up a Hogs plate and Timmy caught Chad in the air and put the plate on his truck! My father passed when I was 5 years old and it was hard but God’s love for me pulled me through it. I have prayed for u guys A LOT!!! Just remember yall have much love from all of us over here!!!!!

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